Rediscovering Myself…

It has been a while since I posted. I am here  I am alive. I am waking up…

For the past year and half I have been hit with this crippling depression. When I thought about writing I would get a bad headache or cry. I love writing… But with this disease I could not find pleasure in anything. i couldn’t even read, and I LOVE to read. After a few doctor visits and a change in some medications. I noticing parts of myself that I missed.

In the past month I have read more then I have in a while. It’s back! The tickle, the need to write is coming back. The fun part, in which I didn’t notice I had lost, singing in the shower. I caught myself, but didn’t stop.

So Mondays I am going to be posting stories as I try to rediscover myself. Wednesdays I will post about writing. And Fridays will be Fan Girl Fridays. I have a lot of things to share.

So look forward to more from me, also cover reveals! I do plan on having The Opposite Side Book 2 out this October. I have an awesome cover to show. I also have one for my Starstruck novel Rock my Stars. I am hoping for a Winter release.


The Eccentric Lady El, Time Traveling Cryptozoologist #steampunk #justforfun #pirate


Good morning my awesome readers. Today me, my hubby, and our friends journey up north to modern time San Francisco. Here we plan on snapping a picture of the elusive T-Rex, enter a rainforest, and much more. All willing we survive the gas carriage ride up.

Tomorrow we will travel back to the golden age of piracy. Vallejo is home of one of the biggest pirate bashes of the year. We shall be hanging out with the great crew of the Silver Realm. I will be on the look out for mermaids, the kraken, and I have a few questions to ask a sea witch.

You can follow my journey on my Instagram

As a reminder the jumping genres giveaway hop is underneath this post 🙂

Jumping Genres Giveaway Hop


I like to write romance because it is a cross boundaries genre. You can jump from fantasy to sci-fi to contemporary to historical. I am not just a romance reader though. The last hop I talked about AVI who was one of the main authors who made me love reading when I was younger.

51+jiFY4cqL._SX332_BO1,204,203,200_Recently I just read Coreyography: A Memoir by Corey Feldman. I usually don’t read biographies. Most are not my cup of tea. But first off the writing was very well done. And I have to say that Corey Feldman does not blame anyone for what happened, but just explained the circumstances that made him a drug addict. I am a huge nerd of 80’s movies. He was my favorite Goonie, and of course my favorite Frog brother. To read how he struggled while he made these movies made me so sad. And when they became jokes to us oh so and so got DUI, and so and so was drugged up and arrested. But there is a reason for it, and it makes me sad. It made me sad that these kids I grew up watching went through the trauma they did. I am glad he made it though it, because not a lot of them did. For those who like me love movies of the 80’s this is a big recommend.

Blurb: Lovable child star by age ten, international teen idol by fifteen, and to this day a perennial pop-culture staple, Corey Feldman has not only spent the entirety of his life in the spotlight, he’s become just as famous for his off-screen exploits as for his roles in such classic films as Gremlins, The Goonies, and Stand by Me. He’s been linked to a slew of Hollywood starlets (including Drew Barrymore, Vanessa Marcil, and adult entertainer Ginger Lynn), shared a highly publicized friendship with Michael Jackson, and with his frequent costar Corey Haim enjoyed immeasurable success as one half of the wildly popular duo “The Two Coreys,” spawning seven films, a 1-900 number, and “Coreymania” in the process. What child of the eighties didn’t have a Corey Feldman poster hanging in her bedroom, or a pile of Tiger Beats stashed in his closet?

Now, in this brave and moving memoir, Corey is revealing the truth about what his life was like behind the scenes: His is a past that included physical, drug, and sexual abuse, a dysfunctional family from which he was emancipated at age fifteen, three high-profile arrests for drug possession, a nine-month stint in rehab, and a long, slow crawl back to the top of the box office.

While Corey has managed to overcome the traps that ensnared so many other entertainers of his generation—he’s still acting, is a touring musician, and is a proud father to his son, Zen—many of those closest to him haven’t been so lucky. In the span of one year, he mourned the passing of seven friends and family members, including Corey Haim and Michael Jackson. In the wake of those tragedies, he’s spoken publicly about the dark side of fame, lobbied for legislation affording greater protections for children in the entertainment industry, and lifted the lid off of what he calls Hollywood’s biggest secret.

Giveaway Time!!

I am going to be giving away a super secret giveaway bag. Books, swag and more. I will say there will be something 80s, some secret but special stuffs, and a couple books. How does one apply for said giveaway. I have a question. What is a new genre you have tried and liked that you thought you normally wouldn’t and what book do you highly recommend. Make sure you leave your email.

So like always check back for more recommendations. I am trying trying to catch back up on my reading. 🙂

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Love Thy Self…

I’m going to take a step away from the writing and talk about self image. Maybe it can be used as a character builder. Or rather would you create the perfect character if you have low self-esteem? Or would you be comfortable making your main characters as flawed as yourself?

It took me a long time to love myself. It was harder when I didn’t have an older role model that would have helped me with some of the “girl” stuff. But I was never really into the “girl” stuff. Make-up made my face feel gross and itchy, and well I don’t think my lips were created for lipstick in general. I feel more comfortable in jeans and a t-shirt, and I choose to be comfortable then dressy. So as I write my characters they are mostly natural, and not to dressy, unless the scene calls for it.

I guess I was lucky that my parents didn’t really care too much about dieting and all that. Although I did wish they were a little more self conscience on the junk we ate. I see girls with self image issues. Ones who have to be on a diet, because their parents had self image issues, because they watched their parents diet most of their life. It’s sad because there are beautiful people out there who think so low of themselves. And it’s sad that these beautiful people will unintentionally possibly pass their low self-image to their children.

Of course other then low self-esteem, the need to diet all through life, never being comfortable in your skin, never being good enough. Also creates the bullies, and those who are bullied. By learning to love your flaws and being okay in your skin you prevent that. Just remember there is only one of you, with one life, do you really want to spend it hating yourself? That doesn’t seem like a good way to live.

Happy May!! #nerdlife

April allergies killed me… I had been really sick during winter that what should have been a short spring cold turned into a 2 week wtf… I have recovered yay! And getting back to the writing board. Books I hoped to be done, will be coming out later, and new projects will have to wait. If you are a signed up for my newsletter you will get a head start on May’s giveaway. I will be having a few starting soon. So keep an eye out. News on upcoming books will be hitting soon too. But with May Californian’s, like me, are prepping… 36987383

Summer is a battle here. Btw a raise of hands who here is a Game of Thrones fan. Are you excited about this season so far? I sure am. Last year at Zappcon I met the best John Snow cosplayer.


This year I have only one convention planned to have a table at that will be Colossus Con in Merced September 17th. But this July me and the hubby will be attending Modest Con in July just for the day. I totally got off topic there. Well I hope you had a great weekend. 🙂

Beautiful Freaks…

When you create something that you share with the world you are now in the public eye. Someone(s) might not enjoy it, but you did it. You boldly went were some are to afraid to tread. By sharing your art, music, writing, etc you are sharing something special. You are giving people a glimpse of your artful soul. It’s tough being an artist, but there are those brave enough to throw it out there and say, “Check this shit out. If you don’t like it too bad. Because I do.” In that I can thank David Bowie and other artists that were bold and daring. To tell the mundane that being weird, odd, nerdy is beautiful. I am broken hearted about him leaving, but happy he left us so much. He will always be The Goblin King.

But this week we lost another amazing soul. Alan Rickman. You might remember him as of course Professor Snape from Harry Potter. But he was so much more. I grew up with him being Hans Gruber, The Sheriff of Nottingham, Colonel Brandon, the voice of God, Alexander Dane, Marvin, Richis, Judge Turpine, the hookah smokin caterpillar, and so much more. He was an exceptional actor who left us with cult characters we will forever love or hate.

Just remember to say fuck it and reach for the stars. You have one life, and who knows when your expiration date is. Be bold, be daring, be freaky, be amazing, because you are all beautiful. So reach!

Author… Writer… Creator…

I never really planned on being a writer. I just liked to make up stories. As a little girl I had an overactive imagination. No dolls or toys, no problem, I could make them up with paper. I lived in fantasy worlds, I created space stations, and endless love stories. I loved telling a story and everyone being captivated by it. I just turned that making stories up, and put them on paper.

In 8th grade out English teacher had us create our own short story and mine was the Tell of the Baby Snatcher. It was about a young girl who was babysitting. A monster came and tried to steal the little boys she was watching. She had to put up a fight but she saved the boys. I received an A+ on the story. My first real A that I didn’t have to work on extra credit for. It made me so happy.

Before high school I wrote my first fan fiction based on Newsies. :o) Yes that was fun.

In high school I started to use the trusty type writer and I created Ellie’s book of Evolution. I angered some people with this, only because of their closed mindedness. I covered different theories from aliens to aliens.

Soon enough by the end of high school I had already had a three ring binder full of short stories. Halfway through my first year in college I had two, and had started on my first novel. Why because me and my friend Author Toy Davis were hanging about writing talking about how we should write novels and bam we started that night and began writing. Her’s a vampire novel and me a witch novel.

I never really thought about publishing or anything like that. I just wanted to tell my stories. Great therapy because you can do whatever you want in your worlds and be whoever you want.

Tuesday Top 10#tuesday10

I am a huge movie buff. I love watching trailers online, and reading buzz on the newest big movie. Here is a top ten of the movies I am looking forward to this year.

  1. Rogue One.
  2. Dead Pool
  3. Captain America: Civil War
  4. Batman VS Superman
  5. Gods of Egypt
  6. Alice Through the Looking Glass
  7. Independence Day 2
  8. The BFG
  9. The Suicide Squad
  10. Pride & Prejudice & Zombies

What movie are you looking forward to watching this year?

Worst Habbit

I try not to but I can’t help it sometimes. It’s just the way I am. But there are a few steps I do to calm my over thinking mind one is knitting. I loom knit. Some people think it is super boring  But it actually puts my brain to sleep. That and reading. I go into a coma when I read. There is nothing around me I am one with the book LOL.

There it went…

30 Days of writing didn’t go over very well. Between it being a busy month I have been sick for the last 2 months, and it finally wore me down. On a positive note. I have a release date for Stone Guardians, which will be revealed on Monday with the cover reveal!!

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. Now on for Christmas. I have a hop next month! Yay! I will be gifting books and a gift card. Also I am working on my writing schedule for next year. No Tulare SciFi Con, so I have no excuse not to write and be productive. I am still pushing around attending ModestoCon, but me and the hubby will be back to Zappcon next October.